07Sep1864, My Past, My Present, and My Future

Volume IX - DIARY, SEPTEMBER 1864 — MAY 1866

HOLKER, September 7th, 1864.—The beginning of this book is a solemn thing to me ; for how little I can tell or conjecture how much I may be altered, and how much may have happened, before the end ! Of course it was always a sealed thing to me, but, on the threshold of a new and untried life, the veil over the future seems closer than ever. But I cannot now feel oppressed, as I did at first, in thinking of all that was new. For, as I have often said and thought, my past, my present, and my future, are all bathed in sunshine, which but for my own faults and weaknesses would be entirely unclouded.